This made me laugh. I suppose its cos I can relate. My heart is a very determined lil thing. Usually when I see someone...or something and at that moment I know I want it so I go for it.
For example...I was watching this live performance of Miley Cyrus singing wrecking ball and she had this mega cute daisy choker on. What did I do once I got paid...I searched the internet and purchased one for myself. Saw it, wanted it, got it.
BAM.
Another example would be a few months back. I was working one day and behold, a beautiful dapper dude with a nose ring appeared in line. It was an instant crush. What did I do...I smiled at him, complimented him...and in time we ended up hanging out, goin on dates, adventures etc.
Point is...my heart totally does know what it wants. So why did this picture catch my eye on tumblr? Maybe cos at this point I dont know what I'm still doing with this guy. I really dig him...and it seems like he digs me back. But I want something more. And he doesnt. So its like I'm torn. On one hand I feel like I should continue whatever this is and enjoy it while it lasts. But on the other it doesnt seem very smart of me to continue to let myself fall for someone who doesnt have the intention of catching me.
We've had conversations about this. Sometimes I get mixed signals. Like this one time, we were at this bar makin a lil toast. "What should we toast to?" I said. He raised his beer, "to being caught" and then I lifted up my cider in glee.
But then another time I asked if he wanted something more and he said something about me being too young and in a different stage in life. What kinda excuse is that?! My parents are 6 years apart...so how is that a deal breaker? As long as you support each other on your journeys doesnt that make everything okay?
Guess I'm overthinking shit as usual. I gotta stop that.
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