If there's one thing I've learned through my experiences its that. Everything is happening for a reason even if we don't understand what that reason is.
What has spurred me to think about this is that anonymous message. I said yesterday that I wasn't in torment at all...rather the opposite actually. But today I find myself very tormented. I've been struck with a UTI since a couple days ago. I thought after drinking tons of water and this cranberry medicine specifically for this infection I'd be right as rain. But it hasn't gone away. And I don't have medical insurance so its not like I can go to the docs and get some meds for it. My best bet is going to the school health office and getting them to hopefully prescribe me some medicine.
Its just strange to think that I am literally in some level of torment because of this minor infection. Any a normal person would think, this has nothing to do with the whole taking the road more traveled question. But I feel like it very much does. Nothing is a coincidence. Maybe I'm getting this UTI cos Gods trying to get my attention. Welp He has it. Everytime I use the bathroom I'm prayin so hard that God takes the pain away and flushes this bacteria outta my system. I can't take the urgent feeling to pee every second of the day...its so distracting from everything. Can't focus. Can't sit or walk comfortably. I'm going to march right to the health office, tell em its an emergency and if I have to wait and endure another day of this I'm going to kill myself. Which I won't but ill definitely want to.
God help me. Hurry and get rid of this infection and drain it outta me. You have my attention.
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