Monday, May 12, 2014

Life without my Galaxy

Its not the same...
I'm disconnected from everyone. 
Almost unreachable. 
More observant of my surroundings. 
Everyone around me is constantly staring into their cell screens. 
It makes me miss mine. 
It makes me feel so alone. 

Thank God I still have my laptop and my camera.


Sunday, May 11, 2014

Really

I'm fine. 
Better off alone anyway. 
Thought it through and there are so many things I need to take care of before I fall deeply and irrevocably in love again. 

1. Pay off debts
2. Finish college
3. Figure out career 
and
4. Get a phone
5. Save $$$
etc etc etc






Thursday, April 24, 2014

Movie Therapy

One of my favorite distractions is MOVIES! They can be so inspiring, comforting and funny!
I googled 'movies to watch after a break up' and all sorts of helpful things came up! 

My Breakup Playlist

1. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind ✔ 
2. Forgetting Sarah Marshall 
3. High Fidelity 
4. All The Real Girls
5. Someone Like You
6. My Sister's Keeper
7. Valentines Day
8. Broken Flowers
9. Sliding Doors
10. Amelie
11. Girls 

Officially on the road to emotional recovery...!

I can't say I'm not sad that its over...

...But I'm happy that it happened.

Even though I felt it coming, even though it was a mutual thing, even though he was super sweet about parting ways...it still hurts. I cared about him so so much. But the universe showed me signs that he wasnt The One so I know its meant to be this way. We both learned as much as we could from each other so thats the end of that chapter. 






Thinking about this drags me into this melancholy funk. I hate it. How do people get over break ups? I keep myself busy but it doenst stop my thoughts from swerving in that direction. 

I'm trying to adjust my mentality about it all. This time will pass...and now I'm free. At least I got to experience life with him for a while. 



Wednesday, January 15, 2014

A New Obsession

Yellow...!


I've been riding my bike and walking more often that usual lately. Not only does this have health benefits but it also has inspired me to take more pictures of what I perceive as real life. 

Most of my photos consist of flowers and other aspects of nature. I want to show them to the world and get people to care about the things this earth grows. I'm determined to start a blog about this. Which reminds me I need to get on it with my fashion blog what the heck am I waiting for?!

I saw this thing on tumblr that said, "I procrastinate even for the things I want to do"
Sadly I can agree.

Before I go on about this a little recap is in order. Lets go back to Christmas.


I was wrong to expect it to be a little dreadful. I'm delighted to be wrong. For ONCE I go to my Dad's house and he doesnt lecture me or put me down or make all kinds of judgments...woohoo! I'm so glad he let me bring Silly. It had been so long since he'd seen his birth mother that when they were reintroduced she growled at him like he was a stranger. I was astonished. Everyone else remembered Silly. Another thing that surprised me was how...HAPPY...my dad was to see me. I daresay its almost like he truly missed me. For some reason I thought he was going to react like Halo did to Silly. But he genuinely was glad that I was in his presence. He even gave me a present...a shiny red starbucks to-go coffee cup...with a wad of twenty dollar bills in it! My sister made us all goody jars filled with our favorite candies...shes so cute and creative! I almost died laughing at how she put "to: loser from: santa} on my brothers present! It was overall a very lovely family visit. The best part was how my dad made a deal with me and said in exchange for the wad of twenties he would help me get current with my student loans. Praise the Lord! It was a miracle! I had no idea what I was going to do about that. Man I was so thankful! 


In addition to the coffee cup ^^ my dad gifted me 
my Aunt and Uncle sent me these cute flower pins (:


Shortly after I came home from my visit Mark took me to this old victorian mansion. This place is apparently known to have the most beautiful, decadent lights...it was a pretty sight indeed. There were lights upon lights upon lights! All around the edges of the house, streaming down and over the front yard, over and around the trees, on the lion pillars...there were even lights on the leaves in the bushes that looked like psychedelic raindrops!


It was a pretty dandy lil experience. 
I spent the New Year with Mark and some friends...mainly his. It was cool...I met this really cute kid, a cool chick, hung with my friend from middle school, had champagne for the first time...only thing that sucked was that I got so unintentionally drunk that I threw up and missed the countdown. I fucking missed my chance to kiss Mark the second it became a new year damnit.



So that was the end of 2013.
What a fucking year...!

I didnt make any new years resolutions because I knew I wouldnt stick with them. But I do have goals. Many many goals.

1. Take it easy with my caffine and smoking addiction. THERE I said it...I'm addicted. 


2. Continue to inspire my fellow Chipotle workers with my uniform modifications.


3.  Take pictures of nature and things that I find beautiful every day




Speaking of things I find beautiful...



Mark never fails to teach and show me things I've never seen or heard of before. I love how he shows me the inner workings of this art. This one time he included me in the making of his zine. It was SO GREAT, but also very tedious and there were so many steps and things that you need to do! I definitely appreciate the zine he gave 11 times more.


I sure am smitten. Sure sometimes he can be a dick but overall he makes me very happy. 
I love going to sleep with him being the last person I see and waking up to him smothering my face with kisses...its a dream. Yet real life. 



Well I'm off like a dirty shirt...!




Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Very Merry

So its Christmas. 
For me this means I visit my dad and step mom's family. Its usually a mix of dullness, awkward conversations and lonely meals. I'm surrounded by people I've been familiar with for the majority of my life but I really dont know them at all. We say hi, how are you, and so what have you been up to, but thats usually as far as the talking goes. This time I'm going to try really hard to not  be a lil outcast. Hopefully it goes by nice and fast. 

Hanging out with my dad/brother/sister/step-mom has been surprisingly delightful! Not once have they asked me about anything uncomfortable or judged me about something. Well thats not true. My dad did make a comment about my hair but only in reference to Miley Cyrus so I took that as a great compliment. I dont know why I've been so afraid to visit for so long. My dad is my dad and I should make it a point to make some appearances because who knows how long he'll be around...or me for that matter. 

Well I'm off like a dirty shirt...!